Taiwan Brown

I checked my last blog and I made it just over 23 hours ago so I can still count this in my day of being serious!

WOW, that last post about my dad pushed my blog into the top US tumblr blogs… I am not at #18,778… not sure what that is now…

Anyways, I owe an apology to all my friends.. for the last few years I have been locking myself in my room… just not wanting to embrace the world…

I just had somethings start bothering me again… like my father but writing about him made me feel much better.

I have also be picking friends I want to bring with me as I become a man… Just yesterday I personally let someone know I had to let them go… Team Taiwan has made many cuts this year… I hope for the better since I can now really count all the people I call best friends on one hand…

I’m not going to officially count the 400 facebook friends or 10,000 myspace friends…  though I like being able to express something and get feed back… plus meeting up with complete strangers is fun too… (don’t jugde me… lol)

Everyone says I never get serious… and was shocked at my last post… but I just wanted to say that whole thing was just cause insurance is very important… and he could have called…

I forgive my dad for what I have been through… from my understanding, not forgiving someone is the only way the Lord will deny entrance to heaven. Makes since because He gave His physical life and all we have to go is change our mental state of thought towards a person. I hope my dad forgives me for things I have done.

I’m fine might go to the movies… not gonna sit around and think about someone who damn sure doesn’t think of me… haha I’m just going to file my dad under ex-girlfriends.

I also got some links on NJ charity care, might make some contacts but to be honest I don’t want to know what it is… (RE last blog).

PS: whos this in my website log from florida? I need to to help me find a missing person. :(

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Yall know I want and need this job as a mtvU VJ… I recently found an email they sent me a few days ago. I been checking my email every hour to see if they would contact me but I have no clue how I skiped this email! It was only a mass email but was actually from another MTV person. This person included a phone number. I cut and pasted the name into google and found her work email. I replied to her email and called her today.

In the back of my head I keep thinking, “Am I being passionate or annoying?”

My weakness is that I care to much… (Papa Roach - Scars)

I want to show passion to let them know I really want this job.

But I don’t want to annoy them so they think I am some jerk looking for fame.

I know college kids all over the US has sent in an email. I even read on twitter that one person had their agent submit (not fair)… her next tweet said she was to old anyways.

…Funny thing is, the mass email was asking if we knew anyone that would like to be a VJ… I can only think of on person that loves music videos, pop culture, and hosting… me! LOL

I still need your hopes and prayers that I become an mtvU VJ!